Let me vent

Being a mother is about learning self sacrifice. It is also a whole self defining experience. I need to vent.

Complaint #1
James is now screaming instead of sleeping. If you read my post in December, you know that originally we trained him to fall asleep on his own without a pacifier. Well, soon it became with a pacifier. Then it became, if he cries hard we'll go in and give him his pacifier back. Currently, he has been screaming for 15 minutes. All mothers know that is torture to endure for both of you. Should I go and give him his pacifier? Will it help? The poor boy has a cold. He wants to be held. He wants to stay awake, but he needs to sleep. Difficult. difficult. If only I could successfully rock him to sleep, but lately that never happens.

Complaint #2
I cannot publish pictures again. This is exceedingly frustrating. Is the server too busy? Am I jinxed?

Complaint #3
About James again.... He no longer sleeps through the night. For awhile he has been waking up every 2-3 hours looking for his pacifier. That was one problem - but I have an idea how to fix that. Now he wants to eat in the middle of the night. Like at 2:30am, 5:30am, and then at 7am. Sorry baby.... mama is getting more and more tired. I complain because since January, he has been going from 7pm - 4am without eating. That was great. What is this regression??? Many of you reading would probably say - "Count your blessings." "You had it good. Many people have it worse for much longer." True but still... This is testing my patience.

In conclusion: I gave James a pacifier and now he is asleep. YEAH!!!!!! PRAISE GOD!!!! And yet, some day he will need to fall asleep on his own. Maybe tomorrow....